I’m putting my Best Boot Forward!
This last week has been a pretty mixed bag. There have been rows and loving moments, energy and exhaustion, productivity and overwhelm. I am NOT feeling balanced. Half term starts this week and I’m hoping this will help to restore some equilibrium.
Kate’s task this week is a pretty cool one: write a love letter to yourself. I’m not sure why I’m struggling with it!
“Dear me, thank you for not giving up when times were rough. Those times have given you amazing strength. Financial abuse made you very good at handling money when you have it. Running a home and three kids by yourself has given you crazy organising skills. Traumatic events in life have shown you that even when you think you can’t handle things, you can: because you’ve survived so much worse.
You need to look after your body more: in particular those joints! I know it’s weird to be saying it in my 20s, but it is NOT normal to hurt so often. Abandon the pursuit of perfection: learning to love yourself as you are will bring you more happiness than that ever could.”
Lose 12kg in a stable and healthy way
I’m not really sure what happened. Despite the scales showing me last week that I’d gained, this week they’re showing me that I’ve lost 1.7kg. Maybe I was looking thinner last week after all. Maybe my scales are dodgy. Who knows? What I do know is my clothes are fitting me a little better so I must be doing something right! I didn’t actually end up keeping a food diary or starting the POP Pilates calendar either… Meh. Not gonna dwell on it. Just going to keep going. Here’s a photo of the vegan pancakes I’ve been munching my way through this week. Every bit as delicious as they look!
Sort and redecorate the house
Argh! After a stressful weekend, that went right out of the window. Luckily, half term is right around the corner and the boys go to their father for half of the week, so there will be time, what with that and the extra 2-3 hours in the day that I’m not preparing for and doing school runs! It’s tempting to add more on top of the carpet cleaning but I’m not going to. Because it won’t get done. If I don’t get it done myself by the end of the month, I will hire someone to do it.
Have enough savings to cover bills for 6 months
My balance is a little lower than it was last week. I did rein in my spending, but the bills have come out and my ex’s 4-weekly maintenance payment is £170ish less than it should be again. The Child Maintenance Service say there’s a queue, bless them – I’ve been queuing for 6 months as it is. They say they can’t enforce Collect & Pay because he was on the sick, but he hasn’t been on the sick since before he started underpaying (which coincidentally was just after Ian moved in with me). Yes, “fathers” should do all they can for their children, including pay for them and in an ideal world, we wouldn’t need to have a CMS. Unfortunately, some people prefer to get by doing the bare minimum they are forced to do. The CMS are there to protect the interests of the children and in this case, they are failing. Sorry for the rant! Some day soon I’d love to be able to add more hearts to that chart!
Continue to reduce our impact on the planet as a family
When I first took the carbon footprint calculator, it told me I was using 94% of my fair share. The second time, it was 101%. The difference? I remembered that I had bought a laptop and a new mobile phone in 2017. This year I’m putting a stop to purchasing big ticket items brand new. I’m already part way there – Rhian’s mobile phone was used and my contract isn’t due for renewal until summer 2019. However, my fridge freezer is falling apart (literally – the freezer door has come loose) and we were thinking of buying new. I’m going to figure out a way to reattach that freezer door and change the bulb in the fridge!
A pretty “meh” week. How has yours been?